To My Father In HIs Eternal Crib

I have many things to say, but I dont know how to utter those. You know, I am a kind of big imbecile when it comes to express my feeling. But now, I have short lines to say: For you, yes you.

The hardest thing is not leaving
But standing here while pretending
As if nothing had changed
And I talked to you not your grave

The pain is not yours, but mine
As well as every remorse
For every good things I couldnt say
For every good deeds I couldnt pay

Irony of Human Consciousness In Machinized World of Capitalism

Human is animal that has overcame its animality. Transcended from very primitive stage into conscious stage of humanity and civilization, human is different from its early stage because as Marx said, it has produced something, in this part is its own consciousness. In this part, human can be identified as machine that has to produce well in order to maintain its performance.
Therefore, human is not looked from the value of his existence but how it can produce things. In the narration of modern world, particularly capitalism, since it is an idealism that control the world, human is a good or an affective one as long as it follows its grand narration. Capitalism can be compared with the grand machine that works 24/7.
The irony is located when human realizes that there is something wrong about capitalism itself, the grand narration that controlling the scheme of the world, the bad side of grand machine. Then he is no longer an affective machine. He can be illustrated as broken gear from grand machine, he should be replaced as soon as possible.

To My Mother

Actually it was sort of funny ga-ga momment when my mom suddenly asked me to write something about her in my journal. She said that I was too much criticizing super stuffs of philosophy but mentioned nothing about her, real person in my life. She said that she wanted every one know her (Now I figured out where I got the spot light craver gen) At first, I didnt like the idea because I am very adamant to be super cheessy self centered person. But then she shocked me by saying that why I had to wait until her death to write something about her. To make fair share, I would like to write something here.

My mother is such typical of loving mother. She always gives her children first place before her. I know that she always wants to give me and my brother everything. She is awesome cook and does good job in handy works such as knitting and stuffs. She always gives me good point of view when I get into self made trouble. I always love her hoomy fragrances rather than any perfumes in the world. More than everything, I like her intelligence, which she never stop reminding as the factor of my bright. She was there when I endured hard trouble of adolescence by never stop to remind me that there is always silver lining behind every dark cloud. I have many things inside my hectic brain but I dont know how to put it all here. She is the limitless topic.

21th Century Modern Human: The Story of Centerless Death Planet In Limitless Universe

21th century was marked by several tragis events which changing thew orld and its inhabitants abruptly. The pre-dawn was highlited by useless extra anticipation of Y2K and its dramas. A year later, WTC was crashed by hijacked airplanes and unleashed bleeding living wounds to many people. Years after that, world became the stage of several fail attempts of revenge in Afghanisthan and Iraq, which brought nothing but another pain and war casualities. In 2004, tsunami wiped away thousands lives in seconds. In 2006-2007, crisis energy stroke global economy and conceived the seed of global economy which was totally born out in 2008. Now it already spreaded like deathly influenza in rainy season, shocking the convenient foundations of world economical stability, creating terrible new trend of unemployment, and shadowing future of millions bright young talents. The condition was worsened with sort of mistrust trend toward system of beliefs (either religion, ideologies, etc), which was only considered as fail agents of morality reinforcement by most people in the world.
Socialism was proven as impractical theory with the fall of socialists countries in the world in the closing decades of 20th century. In the other hand, capitalism was still seen in dual ways: 1) the quick solution to build strong economical nation's stability, 2) the root of moral corruption as well the unavoidable cause of terrible gap in society. Dont ask about religion. It would be never ending disscussion of renaissance era when it came to question if religion could be the solution of society's disease or not. 21 th century unleashed the new hybrid of human, "an individual or you would rather say thinking animal with open bleeding wound amd hopeless feeling without any stable point of view. 21th century people were ripped out from their convenient craddle to witness those catastrophes like witnessing the tragic show of falling dominos.
To make an analogy, we can compare 21th century individual with the death planet. AT first it was living planet which circling in its orbital sphere with the sun as its center of system of belief, the gravitation stand point where it saw and comprehended its anything surrounding it. In its happy and modest orbital sphere, a meteor showers suddenly came in and threw it away. The planet lost its perfect single gravitation. Everything inside it was turned upside down, there was no more stability but total chaos. No sun also meant no strict divider between day and night, everything came into blur. The planet stepped its death since no more shine to enlight the living things inside. Gradually, it met its death. Now the planet was nothing but empty floating rock which wandering alone in limitless universe. Many suns pulled it tho their garvitation spheres, but still, it had already died.

The Twilight Buzz

After several hard discussion lately, I would like to write a lighter topic, about thing which attracted me the most nowadays, Twilight.
At first I was attracted by its simple poster and tagline "When you can live forever, what do you live for?" Then I googled in on net and became more drawn to it. I wanted to see whether Robert Pattinson did good job in here like he did in HP series or not. Th film was undeniably interesting and I could feel strong chemistry between two main characters. I like the scenes when Edward shows the meadow to Bella. After that, the movie touched me to the poin that I wanted to see it thousands times. I figured it out that my girl friends in college also talked about it crazily, mostly we were talking about the sexy Robert Pattinson. One of my dear girl friend even said that if Edward wanted to drain my blood, I will let him do that and say "Choose any part of my body" (Yeah baby, me too. He can pick any place in my body and I swear I wont yell)
After I was able to control my animal instinct, I tried to analyze the movie. Actually there was nothing new in it. Author seemed want to make some old fashioned tale about perfect dashing boy who madly unreasonably in love with average girl.But she knew it wouldnt be a hit. Then she came with the idea, "Hey let' s make the dashing boy becomes the moratally dangeorus vampire" Then came along Edward Cullen. Besides unevitably handsome and filthy rich with his shiny volvo, he is also the world's besat predator. What a terrible beauty? It is like perfect coombination of goody-goody student with gorgeus bad boy from the corner. Who cant resist him, not me of course.

The Destiny of Being Human

Human are kind of subtle, unique creatures. Unlike other predators with exceptional gifts, they are kind of lame. They can't run as fast as cheetah, have no strength like polar bear, or some insightful eyes like eagle. But fortunately, they are blessed with their amazing brain, which enabling them to create many useful tools to survive in this cruel world. Therefore, it puts them into highest place of food link, the strongest of all predators. They are proud to the fact that they are animals with some overactive brain, ragging their superiority above others. Despite their almost omnipotent power, they are still hindered by a fact that they are only weak, vulnerable being against their own...fate. The fate that they cant ever conquer everything in this eternalness world. They are angry with that fate and starting to deny it. But can they do that? Do they really have something called free will? Don't you think it is only kind of illusion for their own lullabies? The fact that every efforts that they did was only kind of illusion, irritated them. They think all magnificent civilization that they build would be proofs for their superiority. Now I let you to think it alone, do you still have any proud of being human?

In The Land Of Gods

In the land of Gods
Along the David's remains
Below the Holy Sepulcher's shades
Between The Al Aqsa's prayers

You can feel the celestial vibration
Above her soils and steps of prophets
Beneath the blood and tears
From pilgrims with true devotion

In the land of redemption
Where sinner turns to be virgin
I cant stop questioning
Why hatred is still living